Wednesday, 30 March 2011

AsToldByBondi: Trapped....

AsToldByBondi: Trapped....: "Trapped… that’s how she feels in this worldA voice in her is crying out, The tears are burning her eyes, Her heart is aching, If only there..."

AsToldByBondi: Silent Screaming

AsToldByBondi: Silent Screaming: "The tears slowly roll down my cheeks My heart keeps yearning for help I am drowning in pain Like a hurricane, you’ve swept away my happines..."

AsToldByBondi: Stronger

AsToldByBondi: Stronger: "Out of the deep hurt of my heart I write out these wordsSee I've been pushed up against the wall, I've had my abilities undermined that i e..."

Stronger


Out of the deep hurt of my heart I write out these words
See I've been pushed up against the wall,
I've had my abilities undermined that i eventually began to lose hope in myself, 
Yelled at soo many times; sometimes when i listen hard i can still hear the words that were selectively shouted at me, 
There were days when I lay on the cold floor of the bathroom and cried my eyes out,
Days when I rocked myself to sleep and woke up
In cold sweats,
Days when I was terrified to get out of bed,
Knowing that when I later returned to it; it would be with swollen eyes and an empty heart,
I've walked around for so long with tears in my eyes,
Forcing myself to smile just to avoid the question ‘’what’s wrong?’’
What I never knew was talking to someone would actually help,

I have hurt……………but now I’m healed;
I looked the devil square in the eye and stuck my tongue at him,
I defeated him,
I've picked myself from the floor and wiped my tears,
Today I walk tall, head held high with the brightest of smiles on my face,
You can’t tell me sh*t because I've been there, done that.
Happiness comes from within, I can testify that.
Everyone thinks that I have it all, no one ever really looks beyond what they see,
And I’m not going to give them a reason to,
I’m not a straight A student but I'm not dumb,
I’m not the prettiest girl in the world but I’m still admired,
No I don’t have it all but I have something worth smiling for.
Life would throw all sorts of darts at you;
You can dance in the rain with me or let your tears flow with the rain drops,
Either ways happiness is a choice,
My life doesn’t feel so empty anymore; choosing happiness wasn’t the easiest choice but it sure as hell is the best choice I've made.
His words tore my heart and she broke me with every comparison, they never knew they did that and I wouldn’t make them feel guilty,
For what it’s worth they’ve made me the strong person that I am today and will be tomorrow and forever.
And every day I open my eyes, there is that assurance that God is holding my hand as I take every little step.

''You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices. Or you can fight back.Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world.That's just the way it is.But for the most part, you get what you give. The rest of your life is being shaped right now; with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person that you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts now''
                                                                           Haley James Scott
Life kicks you around sometimes, it scares you and it beats you up, but there's one day when you realize you're not just a survivor; you're a fighter. You're tougher than anything life throws your way. 

Saturday, 26 March 2011

Silent Screaming


The tears slowly roll down my cheeks
My heart keeps yearning for help
I am drowning in pain
Like a hurricane, you’ve swept away my happiness
Over time pictures fade and all that is left
Are the empty frames in which they once occupied
I've had sleepless nights, cloudy days, and stormy days
Will the pain ever end?  
I'm silently screaming for help
Im slowly losing my mind; going crazy
Save me while you can
I need someone to notice im struggling and give me a hand
See the hurt written all over my face
My heart is slowly breaking,
Im drowning in my hurt and I cant swim
I just need someone to understand
Is that too much to ask for?

Trapped....


Trapped… that’s how she feels in this world
A voice in her is crying out,
The tears are burning her eyes,
Her heart is aching,
If only there was one who knew how she felt
She just wants to run,
Run from her thoughts, run from the world
But there's no place for her to run to
She just wants to lie in the dark and let the tears flow
But she’ll rather put on a brave face
And smile even though that’s the last thing she wants to do
She’s given her shoulders to the world to lean on
But now the world is weighing her down
Shes wiped soo many tears yet no one has wiped hers
She has rushed to the aid of soo many
Yet no one has rushed to her side
She stands alone in this world even though she’s surrounded by soo many
For once if she just didn’t have to pretend that all is well
Cause she is running out of strength to stay happy
Soon she’ll drown in her problems
Will it be too late?
She keeps wondering what shes done to deserve this
She just wants to run away
Her ship is sinking,
All shes done is try to help others,
Yet everything she touches keep tumbling down
Everything comes crashing down on her
She just wants to start again
Undo all her mistakes and get through life
Her best intentions keep making a mess of things
Life isn’t fair; all she wants to do is get it right  

Thursday, 17 March 2011

AsToldByBondi: Vigilant or Blind?

AsToldByBondi: Vigilant or Blind?: "This morning I woke up to a broadcast, usually I would get angry but the first line caught my eye because it was about Gaga. And we all know..."

Vigilant or Blind?

This morning I woke up to a broadcast, usually I would get angry but the first line caught my eye because it was about Gaga. And we all know news about Gaga is just fascinating, her shoes, her sense of fashion, if she's coming out of an egg or wearing a meat dress, You get the gist. But this broadcast just clarified a lot of things to me and here it goes;
The song ''Alejandro'' by Lady Gaga. Very subtly the devil sneaks into our lives to steal and destroy souls! We don't even realize that by just singing the lyrics of a seemingly 'innocent' song with a nice tune, we open the dooor wider for his (devil) evil spirit!!

Alejandro means man's defender and protector (God)
Fernando means ardent for peace (Jesus)
Roberto means bright or shiningly framed (Holy Spirit).
Babe is the same as child

Now the lyrics:
''Don't call my name, don't call my name, Alejandro (God).
I'm not your babe (child) I'm not your babe (child) Fernando (Jesus).
Don't call my name, don't call my name Alejandro (God) Just let me go..

I won't further ask you to think twice about what goes in your head. Lady Gaga sold her soul to the devil for fame, having 8 million ''followers'' on twitter, the new top selling artist and top winner at the grammmys. Do you need a handwriting on the wall to tell you that this is the devil's work? Remember the images of Gaga being carried inside the egg on a cross? Hatching from an egg signifies her cold blooded rebirth. And the implanted horns on her shoulder and cheek bone?? definitely the bride of satan. And you would not believe that my laptop just underlined ''satan'' as an error expecting me to write satan with a capital ''S'' like he deserves that respect. In the beginning of the Bible (Genesis), he came as a snake to Eve and destroyed what would have been a blissful life for all of us now. That is just what he is; a snake, he will sneak into your life and inject you with poisonous venom and soon it will be your end. He has sugar coated our doom and we are enjoying the sweet sensation of it but the coat will wear off and would you be caught saying ''Had I known?''

Many of the common things we see on t.v these days have hidden mind-controlled meanings.The devil was the head of music in heaven, he knows just how to dance his way into our lives with 'simple' lyrics. There are a lot of weak people out there who would believe what they hear and constantly live in denial and make it just as easy for the devil to take over their closed minds. It is the last hour and the devil will try to lead you astray, pray God's anointing on you that you would not end up in the wrong place. There is a war going on between Good and Evil with very few fighters for good left in this world, I would go down fighting for Good bearing in mind that Good always ALWAYS triumphs over evil! I would love to tell you alot more about our favourite songs; Russian Roulette or even Rihanna ''Riry'' herself but time won't permit me otherwise. Check out this website www.vigilantcitizen.com. Don't let your ignorance lead to your destruction.

Ooh and what's with people trying to feel smarter than God, figuring out the day the world shall come to an end. Do y'all not read your Bibles? I keep seeing people fear for their lives and saying they will repent before May 21st 2011, some say the world is gonna end in 2012 but this is what the Bible says and I quote;
''For you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night''
                                                                        1 Thessalonians 5:2
I didn't know that thieves posted the days they would be robbing your house. Be alert and be wise. Above all else, guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life (Proverbs 4;23)